Friday, February 19, 2010
Everyone's really busy huh?
It's been getting pretty lonely and not to mention boring these days.Especially since I don't really intend on working for awhile. But then again I'll run out of money eventually.
Anyways it gets pretty lonely cos at home, there's nearly no one to talk to.
My parents aren't exactly people I talk to about anything..mainly because they turn everything I tell them into a life lesson which annoys me
My brother well, sometimes I think that he doesn't really want to talk to me. But hey, then again, we're completely different from each other. That leaves only my maid/ Godma.
Yeah I've known her as long as I've known my mum. Thing is I don't really trust her with my 'secrets' per say because in the end she tells my mum which would suck.
Plus everyone else is busy with work, school and their own lives to live.
Anyways,
CNY has been as I have predicted, it's not exactly as fun as it used to be..
Seems that even the people around me aren't exactly enjoying themselves either huh? Gosh this sucks alot...
Good things don't happen to me very often and even if they do they never last long.
It's sadly true..
Haiz I'm making myself even more sad now..
Anyways to all those having fun out there,
Happy Chinese New year to ya'll...
I miss you so much
Sunday, February 14, 2010
What hurts the most- Rascal FlattsI can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let ?em out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though
Goin' on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And havin' so much to say
(Much to say)
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do, oh
Oh yeah
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
(To say)
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do
Not seein' that lovin' you
That's what I was trying to do, ooo
______________________________________________I guess there are lots of people who can relate to this song
Unfortunately I'm one of them..
But hey, just because everyone goes through pain in their life
It doesn't mean that the pain we feel is insignificant
We may be young
But the pain is as real as it can get..
That night, I actually decided to tell you how I was feeling
Yes your words were harsh
But honestly you're the only one whose words
Are actually helping..
Though even after this while
I'm still not over it..
I believe that well
It'll happen..
They say time heals all wounds
but they never said how much
But it'll happen.
But right now, I'll still be here...waitingThank you
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
This year might not be so enjoyable as the last few years..
Chinese New year..The food would still be good.
But I'd have too many things on my mind.
I don't know how things are on your end, cos we barely talk.
My life seems much like a boring routine now..
I'd honestly rather be in school.
Life's become really mundane.
All I ever do is use the computer
Watch Tv
Eat
And an occasional exercise every now and then.
Anyways I've been having a lot of dreams lately..
So I'll just say those I remember
The first one would be
I was in school, in class in fact
Dreamed that my entire class was retaking O levels.
But we were retaking individual subjects
I was retaking A maths
Danish was retaking Malay
And there were 4T boys who were there, and we were told because they did well for N's and were offered to go to 5N, anyways saw 3 faces, Myles, Ted and Khairi.haha
Yeah that's a really random dream huh?
Second dream was really super duper extra random,haha
For some reason I was out with Joelle. Yeah No idea what we were doing.
Only thing I remember she was not her usual self.
The fact that I was out with her is already unusual.haha.
Anyways, whatever I asked her to do she did it..
Like I asked her if she wanted to come for Samantha's surprise party she said okay
I asked her where she wanted to eat and she decided to simply.
"Carl's junior"
Anyways we headed towards her place.
And she actually knew Jia ming was going and yet she still went.
And she talked with Jia ming, and he introduced her to Samantha.
I woke up and told myself...WTF??!?!?!?
And this one of another person.
Dreamed that we were living together in a place that sorta resembled mine
You were using your iPhone with the purple casing and for some reason, I had one to and apparently I just got it with a silver casing.
Then I gave you a kiss.
After which, you told me I had to charge it because it'd for only 20mins
So I looked for the charger, and then went downstairs to charge it
Saw you near the power point with a blanket over your entire body
Looked under the blanket and asked what you were doing, you said it was dark and cold(?!)
Then you were playing this game on your iPhone, and you said it was a Jackie Chan game.
And he was fighting this orange looking figures.haha.
Then I gave you one last kiss before I suddenly woke up..
Marianne♥, will you be my valentine? All these weird dreams I tell you, it must be because I'm so lonely at home.haha.
Oh oh oh, I remember one I had about late last year..
Dreamed about Pokemon,I was this gym leader who used Water/ Ice Pokemon
And apparently I was like damn pro.haha
Yeah and I knew the people who challenged me in the gym..
Example of such people, In order from the 1st person
1.Marcus, Wearing an army uniform
2.Joelle, Dressed up like a typical female trainer from Pokemon
3.Malcolm, Wearing skinnies and sunglasses
4.Amelia, can't really remember what you were wearing, but I remember FBT's.haha
5.Leyon, this one, cannot forget, dressed up like the boy from kingdom hearts.HAHA
I lost only to Amelia and Marcus.
Almost lost to Malcolm
But Joelle and Leyon lost hands down.haha
Ok so that's the last of my random dreams that I remember.haha
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Now that the JC people have started school.
I'm actually quite jealous.
There's an actual unity that can't be found in a poly
That sense of belonging and school spirit.
Also because well, everyone has something in common-the uniforms.
I'm gonna miss wearing a uniform honestly, well yeah I'll be wearing one during NS but that's a different case isn't it.
It's just something about a JC that brings people together.
I guess it's also because JC is something like secondary school
Which I'm gonna miss terribly.
And for one, I'm gonna miss student concession to...it's gonna be so expensive to travel.
Though I'm not to keen on the stress part but hey, it's an environment like this that I enjoy
It's probably smaller-in a good way-compared to a poly in a sense that you're bound to know more people.
I wish I could have gone to a JC but I doubt I'd have made it.haha
I know I start school later, but hey I will be starting school so there's no escaping it right?
I'd be willing to sacrifice my holidays to get student travel rates and go to a school with a much better environment no?
Anyways, to all those in JC, I envy you alot